The Black Mee

#..."Honestly, i'm not a patient and a calm person..but i always try silence and observe everything-- don't wanna show anxiousness, just smile and do what i can do"...tiffanichan


In my opinion..
Someone in their life, their personality, their behavior difficult to say good or bad, right or wrong...many people often ask question to me..
"am i wrong? is that my fault? am i right? i have a good decision right? what should i choose? etc.."
i always answer that..nothing is wrong or right, but it's what you think and what you feel..
we are human, have a different way in life...no one can blame you..as long as that's not an extreme thing that you know exactly wrong..like break the law or something..

easy right, when i say that..
but, if i have a question about something to myself..that's a very difficult to answer, to choose what should i do..
i'm not talkative person when have a trouble in myself..silence is the best way or just hang out with my friends or keep alone in my room..listening music, reading or dancing..
i hate to make attention, i can't share my deep feeling, i hate crying, i dislike become weak person, i dont want angry and disappointed to other people..so i have a principle :
as long as i can stand alone and do everything alone..i'll do it!
i never dependent on someone, even they are my family or friend,about to do something.... but actually i really really clinging on my friend for my safety (emotional)...about accompany me in many moment, just share happiness..
i really love sharing my thing, my effort..i'll do everything to other people who i love, admire and i respect for..

like Kim Jae Joong words:

....For the first time, for some odd reason, I find myself feeling lonesome, as if I am watching my shadow getting uncontrollably farther away from me with the setting sun. World, tell me that it isn’t true. But because there is the light of the singing sun, I tell myself over and over again, “I’m okay. I’m okay.” Though I can’t see it, I can hear it. And I can feel it....

...I don’t feel hurt at all. I won’t show you me being hurt or sad anymore. I’m going to smile from now on..