Sometimes so Easy to Talk than to Act

I'm not a spontaneous person, always think before act and talk..my bad,too much thinking actually...

My body ask something,coz my mind&heart really nervous now... i'm searching what the answer is..

Every moment is a chance,every second is precious to share & do everything to reach dreams,every breath is a life...God,i know U always understanding everything in me,but still-- i always say everything to U every second-thankyou so much U always listening

many times, always repeated about to do what i have to...

"i can..i can...this is a process...i have to pass it like other people...all people can do that easily, why i can not?"

often i asked myself, to be strong..strong and control of my emotion and expression...

to be adult is not easy..many things to think, to do in many environment and in different society...

every time are growing and adapting...

when the time is come...time for challenge myself, have a big battle every a crisis time..about what i said, what i wanted, what i dreamed....after a big war one year ago (for a great 2011) i have to move on...and how to create a new me, to a new world, need a big first step...but it's not easy as i say...
before i run away for catch my dream, build my dream, i have to get out from this comfort zone..even my body crying demand of silence and stuck or enjoy it...i must walk away...this is so irritating me...this is annoy me so much...

the bad thing is-times never wait me for recovery..it just smile and go..tick tock tick tock...
it's like say:
"this is life, u can wait..every second is important for future..every breath is a basic stone of ur dream"

i hate this feeling..but this is a life process...